Rewind and Undo

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In my head I paint a picture

Of some day walking free.

All my hang-ups and delusions

Laying in a pile behind me.

 

In my head I paint a picture

Of no more medication.

No more need to medicate

No more side-effects.

 

In my head I paint a picture

Of family bonds and closeness

No more driving forever to get there.

No more procrastinating that phone call.

 

In my head I paint a picture

Of what my family might have been

Had love and understanding been the rule

Instead of fear and loathing.

 

In my head I paint a picture

Of foolish decisions unmade.

Broken relationships mended.

Hurtful words unsaid.

 

In my head I paint a picture

Of all the things that I regret

Somehow never happening

And I can sleep better after that.

 

 

 

Carry on Tuesday #115

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Time and Us

Most are fond

Of yesteryear,

 

Even with pain

And regret.

 

Perhaps one would

Alter a thing or two.

 

But we agitate

When considering

 

The frustrations

Of the present

 

And we seek

To control

 

The coming day.

Strange that we

 

Cannot be tranquil

Towards so much.

 

 

(3WW CCXLIV)