A Second Guess

How do you know

What to do

When you don’t feel quite right,

And you’re not getting through

Life unscathed,

And you can’t really sue?

I wonder

If I should have

Gone to get help

When my empty head

Was playing tricks on me.

I wonder if I should have stayed,

When I had a choice to make.

But was I free to choose?

Family and friends

Supported me.

The doctors were helpful,

So also the nurses,

Some of them, anyway.

I think it was good

That I stuck around,

But the journey was full

Of grief and regret.

Hindsight’s 20/20,

As they say.

Sharing Your Struggles

Silence

Is golden, but costly.

Holding it all in

Can be quite a sin.

Sometimes,

We need to share

Our doubts and fears,

Our dreams and nightmares.

And we need to listen,

To give support,

To extend a hand

In goodwill.

You are important to me,

And I know

I’m important to you.

So I’d like to soothe

Your anxiety.

Let’s be a team

To overcome life’s struggles.

Transitions

It’s been almost three years since I was hospitalized for a major med change. Everything went really well while I was in the hospital, although I got into a friendship with another patient that wasn’t good for me. I would end up taking medical leave for an extended amount of time and then attempt to return to work. That didn’t work out, though. I ended up back in the hospital, and, when I got out I decided to leave my job on long term disability. I hired a lawyer to help me get approved for SSDI, and after a couple denials it went to hearing and I won my case. Since then I started taking classes at Lively Technical Center. I finished the program for legal administrative specialist but decided by the last class that I wasn’t completely sure that was what I wanted to do. So, this Fall I reenrolled at Lively in hopes of getting certified in Microsoft Office. I eventually realized I was only going to be able to get certified in Microsoft Word, as Excel was too difficult and I was feeling ready to finish with school and move on to a part time job. I plan to finish the administrative office specialist program in the Spring, and start looking for a job.

Care Bear in Chief

Our president is a jerk.

Things he says make me smirk.

Our government is shot.

But a boost on the move

Is coming up smooth.

All these women taking over

Can only be improvement.

Just a CEO

Of the country

Is what we need.

Someone who really cares

About the people

Who live in this great country

That sometimes seems

Not so great.

Perhaps a woman

Can do the trick.

Perhaps someone

A little different,

Perhaps someone comfortable

In the lead

Or just working

Behind the scenes.

Maybe someone will turn up

Who isn’t a jerk,

Maybe someone who won’t smirk

At the mere mention

Of a little work,

A little heart,

A little dirt.

Walking with Me

Walking by weeds.

Working with steeds.

Realms of gold

Cycling to infinity.

Benevolence

Traps you in the scenery.

Simple facts

Contradict the Spelling Bee.

Talking to tarantulas

Occupies me.

Do you give a flying flea?

Frontal lobotomy

On the raging sea.

Why don’t you come with me

To see what you can see?