Blast roach sting collide quarrel link pill
Pocket zilch fuse dynamite dam railroad
Mountains overdose gun blade blood if
Too much to drink try livid exploded can
Hell past insignificant rush salt bash up
Blast roach sting collide quarrel link pill
Pocket zilch fuse dynamite dam railroad
Mountains overdose gun blade blood if
Too much to drink try livid exploded can
Hell past insignificant rush salt bash up
I had more thoughts about suicide today. What it would be like to just disappear. Again, more romanticizing of it. How shocked everyone at work would be. What my wife would do. How everyone would feel sorry for me, sorry for my wife, sorry for themselves. What would my brother’s kids think and feel? I’m sure life would be more of a challenge for them. My poor Dad. As if he hasn’t had enough loss. And my mom, could she hold it together? So much drama. And maybe that’s why it fascinates me. Suddenly, in ending my life, it actually gains significance, people who don’t seem to pay much attention are now attentive. And what if I overdose, but I don’t die? What if I end up in the mental hospital? Perhaps it would be good to go there first. How do you know if you need to admit yourself? Is it worth waiting and risking impulsive acts occurring? I don’t have a plan, but I’m struggling. I just feel so insignificant.