Before I pray, I want to know:
Will God hurt me?
Will he betray me?
What if he gets mad at me
Like he did to some people
In the Bible?
What if the bad things
About God in the Bible are true?
What if the good things
Are not true?
What if God rejects me?
What if he tells me
To kill someone?
What if he tells me
To leave my family and friends?
There are scary things
About God that worry me.
There are scary things
About love that worry me.
To fully trust someone
Is to put your life
In their hands,
No holding back.
Is God worthy
Of my trust?
Someone as powerful
As God is scary to me.
Just think
Of what he could do to me
If he hates me.
Does God hate me?
Stumbling along the sidewalk 
Sometimes I have those thoughts also. But I believe God through Jesus is merciful, kind and compassionate.
Thanks, DeBorah. I’m glad you can relate. Sometimes my head and my heart are not on the same page.
That makes two of us. I felt that way for the last several days. Stress. Pressure. Anxiety. Was not able to attend a meeting today.
Sorry to hear that. Hope things get better for you soon.