Broken

Searching for that connection.
Where is he? She? It?
Where or who is God,
When I am here, in this broken

Body, groveling before the pain
Of existence, desperate for some
Type of relief, some release
From the slavery of my body?

My heart aches. My soul cries out
For mercy, but where is my God?
Where is that freedom, that grace,
That hope, that love, that I once knew?

Where is my identity in Christ?
Where is my savior?
All I know right now is suffering.
Is that you, Lord?

Am I meeting you where you are,
Where you were on that cross?
And if so, what will be the victory?
What great battle is going on?

Is my soul the battleground?
Is my heart the prize?
Is this what it takes to bring me
Back into your fold?

To break me, mold me,
Shape me into something beautiful?
But I have been here before.
I have been broken.

Must I be continually broken
In pain and suffering?
What are you trying to teach me?
And where are you taking me now?

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Author: Gordon S. Bowman III

Writer, Visual Artist, Blogger, Advocate

2 thoughts on “Broken”

  1. Rarely do these thoughts find words in my life…..but they’re definitely felt. The impact of reading them is felt deeply.

    “But I have been here before. / I have been broken. / Must I be continually broken…”

    and…love the last line: “And where are you taking me now?”

    Great reminder that brokenness leads somewhere. Thanks.

    1. this was difficult to write, as are many of my poems. afterward, i feel empty and exhausted. but i am glad it resonates with you, for that provides encouragement that i can really use right now. i appreciate you sharing. it means a lot. : )

      Gordon

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