Mesmerized. Taken in slowly,
Then so fast you can’t stand it.
Room to grow but nothing doin’.
Alone, so very alone. Keeping one’s
Secrets close to home. Shame, shallow,
Around and around you go,
It’s all the same. Nothing changes
Until you get sick of it all. You can’t
Stand it anymore and you want to be free.
Outside influences aren’t worth much.
It is a personal, visceral decision.
To cut out one’s heart and throw it
Into the ocean! To separate oneself
From everything—everything that
Brings you closer. You must sever
That bond, all ties, or else you will be
Pulled right back under. It’s not a
Journey, it’s not a path. It’s a scream
In the dark of desperation. You are trapped.
You are suffocating. And you must be free.
Free Write Friday; Addiction