Doubt

Bringing you to a place you never went before,
Discovering new thoughts, new identity, new ideas,
Inspiration for a brighter outlook on life.
Finding out who you really are.

So, what do you really believe?
Not your professed faith, doctrine or philosophy,
But day-to-day, how do your actions bear out
What lies beneath the surface?

In the heart, there are doors
That we keep shut, barred, barricaded.
“Nobody’s gonna get in there,” you tell yourself.
But then it happens.

That crisis.
That worst of all days,
That you never thought would ever come.
He or she leaves, or dies, or rejects you.

You lose your job.
You get a divorce.
You lose a big investment–your car, your house, your reputation.
What is left?

Who are you, now?
What is your purpose in life?
Where are you going?
With whom? And why?

It happens to all of us,
Sooner or later.
That day does come.
But when it does come, and it will,

Are you ready to face it?
Are you ready to say,
“I can do it!”
“I still have me.”

Is that something to stand on?
Do you know who you are?
Are you living that out?
Are you following your dreams?

And, if those dreams don’t come true,
Are you ready to give them up
For another dream?
Hmmmm…

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Author: Gordon S. Bowman III

Writer, Visual Artist, Blogger, Advocate

2 thoughts on “Doubt”

  1. I read this one yesterday, too….and I found myself thinking on different pieces and parts of it…have come back a couple times to re-read it. I especially like:

    Is that something to stand on?
    Do you know who you are?
    Are you living that out?
    Are you following your dreams?

    And, if those dreams don’t come true,
    Are you ready to give them up
    For another dream?
    Hmmmm…

    So many dreams have not come to pass…but was I actually living them out as the person I was meant to be?? Is that why they so easily were given up?

    …thanks for the thoughts to ponder…

    1. Thanks for your comment. That is an interesting take on the poem. I have a hard time giving up dreams, so my experience is difference than yours, though yours is just as valid, of course. I don’t question myself about “being the person I was meant to be” as much as “What will work?”, “How can I dream realistically?” and “What is realistic for me right now?”. Although what is realistic can be interpreted as “How can I conform to God’s plan?”, I guess I just don’t inject those terms into my thinking because I don’t want to be confused about my own knowledge versus God’s omnipotence. I think we fool ourselves when we begin to think that we know God’s thoughts or intentions about ourselves or anyone else. I think that those things are beyond our imperfect humanity, and God does not intend for us to “figure Him out”, so to speak. Just my take on it. You can take it for what it’s worth, and leave the rest. Thanks again.

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