A Smile for a Smile?

Hello you,
How ya doin’?
I am fine,
But now I’ll whine.

Sometimes,
When I am lying in bed
In the dark,
I think of ways

To make my mark,
But then I realize
There are so many reasons
To despise

Things I say and do.
Do you
Ever wonder
About your blunders?

I am
Crestfallen
When I see the face
Of a person

When they look at me
Looking at them
And then look
The other way.

Am I repulsive
To them?
Not that I blame
The ones who do,

But wouldn’t it be nice
To receive a smile
In return
For a smile?

Is that
Too much to ask?